Angst

Shouldn't it be spelled something like anxst?!?

angst   noun
a feeling of dread, anxiety or anguish
akin to narrow or constricted

ambivalence  noun

1. uncertainty or fluctuation, especially when caused by inability to make a choice or by a simultaneous desire to say or do two opposite or conflicting things.

2. Psychology . the coexistence within an individual of positive and negative feelings toward the same person, object, or action, simultaneously drawing him or her in opposite directions.


I'm feeling something of a cross between angst and ambivalence.
i need choices. and sometimes i don't get them.
 
sometimes you just have to follow through on your commitments. sometimes you just have to let go and wish the best.
 
sigh.
 
endings and beginnings. i want to stay and go.
i want to yell and cry.
rejoicing and lamenting.
alone but full.