sometimes life just doesn't go like you hoped.
and it doesn't have to be a bad thing....but i just don't always know what to do with the hopes and then the disappointments.
I'm practicing living in the midst of ambivalence. f-ing ambivalence.
wanting the good, hoping for life giving situations or circumstances.
and then, the realistic moments of loneliness, disappointment, pain or confusion.
my mentor says that life is hard. and i should expect it.
(oh how i hate it when she says this.)
but i am also a person of hope. which often gets my heart broken.
my disappointments have been small recently. so small. but they are here.
and i'm just not sure how to live in the middle of it all. the deep good, and the striking desires for more.
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