Painfully Aware

i think one of the things that school is good at is making you more aware of yourself.
One of the things that's said a lot is: you can't take someone any farther than you have gone yourself. Which, seems to translate into MHGS language: lets talk about all your issues and stuff....so you can, hopefully, work through it.

i like it. true. but it's hard. real hard.

I feel real aware of how i don't like being bullied.
I'm better at fighting for others than myself.
I'm not very good at being angry.
I'm often naive in situations and then i get hurt.
I'm not good at asking for what i want.
I'm often more critical than positive.
I'm too practical sometimes.
I often feel like I'm a day late and a dollar short.
I have a hard time speaking up in the face of know it alls or those not so interested in listening.
Relationships are more important to me than success.
I've held onto my personal flair, despite discouragement or teasing.
I live out of a place of shoulds more than a place of freedom.
I take personal responsibility for things going wrong, when i can not always be responsible.
I'm sensitive to others comments, so sensitive.
My desire for love has led me into some raw situations.
All i really want to know is that i am loved. that i am doing great and that i am loved.