Confessions from a Lonely Girl

I once told a friend that he looked like he had a comb over. He actually has quite sexy hair.
Why did I say that?

Yesterday at work i mentioned that kids hitting puberty might be concerned about the opposite sex, and, in front of my lesbian co-worker was corrected. They could be thinking about the same sex too. Why do I say things without thinking?

Today i cried for thirty minutes because I don't feel like I'm accepted as a Christian at work. It could be so much worse. Why did I lose it?

I could eat my way to 180 pounds and only have regret after i looked in the mirror. Why would i do that to myself?

I'm going on a date on Saturday to an expensive show when i know that i do not plan on seeing the guy afterwards. I feel guilty. Why am i letting him take me?

I judge the selfish bitch at work who doesn't help anyone. Where does my human nature stop and the Holy Spirit kick in?

I get paid to coddle adults who have a hard time dealing with conflict or following through with their commitments to children. In Africa mothers are holding their dying babies every day. Why am i still here?

I don't trust my co-workers and do not feel that it is safe to share my heart at work. As we begin to discuss inclusiveness, I'm scared. What do i do?

I do not feel financially secure. I have a job, a degree and a car. Why should i be able to complain when most of the clients i work with are on food stamps, government housing and receive free lunches for their children at school?

I often want to kick the dog i live with because he has poor manners. Why would i even think that is ok?

I'm losing my friendship with my crush, because i can't talk to him without loving on him. So, I'm not talking to him. Why is my heart so misleading?

I'm jealous that a friend is moving to Nicaragua. God's story for her is right, why do i have to rain on her parade?