school

I hate school tonight.



it's too much. and it's not enough and i hate it.


mostly, i have a big project/paper to write, and i don't even really know what i need to know to write the paper. that's the main thing right now. i don't want to do it.


but also, i'm never home. i don't have enough time to even do half of the reading that i'm supposed to be doing. i want to see J and my sisters, and i don’t have time.


i want time at home to do my laundry...which reminds me......


i want time to have fun dinners with J and plan our wedding and marriage.


i want time for rest and laughter. time and money to visit dear friends.


i don't want to feel like i have to go to the grocery store at 9pm because that's the only free time i have.

i want time to run in the mornings.

i want to make some friends that don't say things that make me skin tingle and the rage flare up in me.

i want a professor that calls people out on their stuff rather than letting people take over class time with their drama.

cranky. cranky.

PS where is spell check on this thing these days!?!