Leftovers

Some thoughts from my classes:
-What are you willing to die for? Are you then, willing to live for it in a way that you would be willing to die for it?
-If no one stands up to fight for those who have been wounded and left and hurt and abused and teased and ignored and shunned, who will? It often makes me very angry to hear these stories. So angry i wanna get my big black boots on and do some serious butt kicking. and sometimes, i am surprised when the wounded ones could care less if i do some ass kicking or not. this we would call a denial of desire.
-Can i wrestle with something seriously enough to get a blessing out of it? or do i wrestle playfully and never stick with it long enough to get the blessing? Am i willing to be forever changed by the wrestling? Am i that passionate about the blessing?
-Hope is like bringing light to the darkness. Often, the light hurts our eyes.
-When we live out the one thing that we were created to do, the thing we are willing to die for, often the cost is very great. (on a personal note, i feel this so deeply with my family. As we are each, most days, trying to live out what we were created for, the cost is each other. We lose connections, we miss connections. Traditions are lost and need to be made new. Time together is precious and hard to come by. What was the BSF question this week...what obligation to your family have you left for someone else to do? wow. convicting. Think Moses and Zipporah. Zipporah stepped in where Moses had not done the job. But then someone said maybe Zipporah had a bad attitude about it. well, Moses left something undone. Zipporah stepped in and took care of it. Is the fault Moses's or Zipporah's? or neither? is it not my fault nor my family's fault that we leave obligations undone? If these "obligations" are no one's fault, then what lesson do i take from the obligations i leave for someone else to do? sigh. my family has become like an international family of mystery. And i am just as guilty. I have left. I have been unavailable. i have chosen something else in the place of the family farm. so how do i live authentically in this place? How do i find community with my family in new and fresh ways?)