Distracted

ok, really?!? seriously? seriously!
i totally let myself be distracted by blogging when i have serious papers to write.
I'm a procrastinator.
seriously.
sigh.
i can think of 100 other things i'd like to be doing, instead of struggling to put words to the thoughts in my head. in fact, i'd almost rather study for a multiple choice test. maybe.
tonight i have two papers to finish. one is close, the other is longer and needs much more work. and i'm struggling to care.
class i can highly enjoy. reading, even, i like. but papers. i'm just not into them yet. not finding good space, time and energy to give them what they deserve. i dont want to be specific. i dont want to put my heart into it as well as my mind. i dont want to give you a detailed description....not into it.
three classes this summer.
1. spiritual direction, basically finished once i turn in this last paper. i believe that spiritual direction and therapy should go hand in hand. i was sorta surprised to realize not everyone else thinks so!
2. multicultural issues. phew! it's a wammie! we have a lot of reading to do, two big papers and class is an intense experience itself. the first day i came home crying. the second day i basically cried all day in class! tomorrow will be day #4. i'm struggling to stay engaged. and maybe i should be ashamed, because as a white person, i have the choice to engage or check out. but really, it's only a class. and i've got other things going on.
3. Counseling children and adolescents. i love it. i love thinking about working with children, i love that i'm learning things i never learned in all my previous education or experiences. i love that there is deep hope and passion from my professor regarding work with children and families.

plus, i'm trying to plan a move. trying to plan a wedding. trying to work through my own stories of childhood and transitioning into married life. the stress has been high. i'm struggling to care for myself well.
plus, jeff comes tomorrow night and i'm thrilled. cant wait. it's supposed to be a beautiful Seattle weekend, and i cant wait to hold his hand and see his face. let me say again, long distance is not for the faint of heart.
ok, back to paper land. the dreaded paperland.