Today

I had time to journal this morning.
I taught Sunday School to the rowdy group of 4-6th graders at Hillside. I realized i wasn't thrilled about the lesson, so how can i help the kids be interested in it? I want to be responsible for the kids, i want to be a good leader, i want to help them learn new things and see JC in new ways. Today i felt like i was reading the script and babysitting. I don't want to teach like that.
I had lunch with friends who have traveled the world and been changed by it. We talked of how it has impacted us, how so many don't understand it, and how we could support each other. I see how much Hillside wants to love on people well, and how much I fail to be an active part in that. Can it ever be too late to help? Is it too late to help mend hearts and hear people's stories? I hope not, but i wonder....
I went on a carriage ride with some friends and enjoyed a classic treat. Slow rides thru old towns, I love it. Warm cider finished off the ride nicely and i was reminiscing of my childhood spent at the Feed Store, around horses and horse people.
I talked with my super BSF leader about our weeks. She got a speeding ticket, I'm picking my sister up from the airport tonight. We're both reading a "dating" book. I'm dragging my feet thru it, but mostly because it challenges my thinking and current stagnant place in life. I'd like to be able to freely complain about my lack of dating life, but also do nothing about it. That's fair isn't it? Sigh. I'm glad others are reading the book, cause I'd like to throw it across the room and let is stay hidden behind the TV.
I found out today that a friend of mine has made a major life choice/change, and she didn't tell me. I'm worried about her, of course, but I think I'm more hurt that she didn't trust me enough to tell me. I can't always ask questions about every aspect of others lives, and I feel responsible for this friend of mine. I want good things for her. I want to know what's going on, and i fear she didn't think i would be trustworthy with her news. How does one become the friend that supports, loves and doesn't judge? What do you say when people make choices that seem real dumb? I have long debated the time in my life when i made lots of wrong choices. Would i have listened if anyone had challenged me about it? Would i have been receptive to questioning? I wish someone would have cared enough to lovingly ask me about my choices. I wish my path would have been different sooner.
I'm headed out for the airport.